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I've always been biting something ever since I can remember: my scarf, my pencil, my doll, now even my hand and when I'm mad, other people. I've been restraining myself from biting things but now I realize I have a habit of clenching my teeth. Whenever I notice and stopped doing it I'll regain that urge to bite something.
I have more intrusive thoughts than I can even count. When I'm around people, especially those that I love, the thought jumps into my head that I should injure or even kill them. I calculate lethal dosages for myself in my head, and ponder other ways of committing suicide. Should I drive into oncoming traffic? Set myself on fire? Drown myself? I have panic attacks when I think about the fact that nobody will remember me after I die, but always think about dying.
Sometimes I have the urge to take a huge, thin needle and slowly push it through the parts of my body that would hurt the most: stomach, neck, wrist, soles of my feet, palms of my hands, thigh, calf, any odd part that feels vulnerable. This urge makes no sense to me, because I have a crippling fear of needles, to the point where getting a vaccination can make me pass out.
I've had it pretty good lately. I like my job, my SO proposed and I said yes, roof over my head, minimal bills, food every day. Recently, I've had the urge to leave. Run away and not look back. Go someplace I have never been with people I don't know. It may not sound like much, but I've never been completely on my own and I have no idea how to survive. It's the worst feeling I've ever had.
Ex broke up with me many months back. I'd never follow through on any of these things, but she started dating a friend of mine and sometimes I just want to seriously hurt him so he'd stay away, or torch his car. Or do something to ruin his business. Besides that, there's always some little thought that hopes some tragedy will happen in her life so I can be there. Usually rape or a death in her immediate family. F***ed up, because I could never wish either of those things on her, and I really like her family. I don't want them to die.
I have always had the urge to physically hurt my friends. With one friend in particular, I have such a strong urge to break his fingers. Not that I'm angry or he's done anything particularly wrong, it's just... I want to break his fingers so badly.
I always have the urge to cut my bottom lip down the middle. I always play with pocket knives, so I'm constantly with the urge to bring it to my bottom lip and cut it. I also like to trace the outline of my lips with the knife. What the f**k?
Whenever I am walking and a car comes from the other direction towards me, I have a very strong urge to put my fist out infront of the windscreen, smashing through and punching the driver directly in the face, I know it wouldn't end this way in reality, but it would still be awesome
For a week straight I had the urge to put myself in cold places. I took off my shirt and held my arms and torso under the freezing cold sink water. I open my window and try to make my room as cold as possible.
Most times, when I see a garda alone on patrol, or even sometimes when there's 2 of them, I get a near uncontrollable urge to tackle the piglet from behind and jump up an down on his head with both feet till there's no head left at all. It's weird tho cos I don't feel angry at the time, just really excited.
Sometimes I get the urge to just punch people in the face, even if I dont know him or her. I just feel like punching their faces. Oftentimes I get the urge to cut and see myself bleed. I just need to see blood!
When I see cute animals and babies, I get the urge to pick them up, hold them by their feet, and slam them against a wall several times! or even stomp on their heads! their cuteness is something I can't take!
I have the strong urge to make myself sick or hurt myself badly at least 10 times a day each day some days I feel like beating the crap out of myself with my fathers belt, sometimes I want to go over to the river beside my house and jump in knowing I can't swim. I had the urge to poke my eyes out with Pen earlier today and then cut my fingers off with my mothers kitchen knife. Sometimes when I'm alone in my room i feel like throwing myself up against the wall until i pass out or choke myself with a belt. I want to bite my lower lip until I go all the way through. I want to swallow all the detergent in the laundry room when i'm doing laundry. So I guess I can say I have the insane urge to hurt myself constantly.
I always have the urge to not eat. I always give in to that urge too. I also have the urge to throw up after I eat. I have the urge to cry. And cry. And cry. & Cry. Anxiety & depression is truly getting to me. A cry for help?
I have the urge to stab myself in the eyes whenever I'm holding sharp objects; pencils, scissors, knives. I picture myself doing it and it makes me flinch, I have to get away from the sharp thing because I'm afraid I'll really do it. Sadie
I can't explain why but, whenever I am around someone I get an unexpected urge to bite them. Sometimes it scares me and other times it thrills me. Just the other day I wanted to bite my little sister on the shoulder, all the way through, until my teeth touched each other. It was different this time though, I kept leaning in to do it but was distracted. I can usually calm down the urge by running barefoot or swimming underwater for a while. But it's getting outta hand and now it's not only people I want to bite. Chicken Bones, my dogs chew toy, and pencils have all been inside of my mouth now. Am I weird? No one knows about this urge but me. And I feel like if I do end up biting somebody soon, everyone will start to avoid me...
Whenever I'm in the shower I get an urge to turn the water up really hot and see how long I can take the scolding pain for. Never done it, always forcing myself not to, as I don't want to injure myself. Sometimes if it gets too overwhelming I do it with cold water instead just to get it out of my system. mb