Not coping well with stress at the moment feel on the verge of panic attacks constantly because of the pressure I’m under I find it hard to breathe, I can’t take in a whole breath my chest feels like it cannot expand and I want to push a knife through my chest under each rib so I can breathe again.

While I’m driving, I always get the urge to turn my wheel toward semi trucks. Think of how catastrophic that would be! And exhilarating.

The unbearable urge to beat myself to death. I hope I work up the courage to do it one day.